Kairos is by far the best retreat I’ve ever gone to. Then again, I’ve only gone on so many. However, this one’s definitely a lot different than the rest. I think the one thing I’m just so impressed by and couldn’t stop getting emotional about is all the love (and I mean real love) being shown throughout the various things we all had to go through.

I mean, you think about school, and how there are cliques and different groups of people, and then there are temporary environments like this where everyone seems vulnerable (in the good way) and everyone just seems so human. In a way, it made me realize that a lot of the little things I worry about daily — a lot of them being my insecurities — really aren’t that big of a deal, and aren’t something I should worry about as much. 

I also learned a lot of things that have to do with love, and I’m not talking exclusively about the love we find with a significant other… though, I’m starting to wonder if there’s even that big of a difference between loving a significant other and loving people in general. In fact, I’m starting to believe that there’s a very thin line between the two, and a lot of things are the same. (not everything).

It was also so nice to hear everyone and what they had to say. Kairos re-emphasized the reason why I think everyone really does have some amazing, redeeming qualities, and that mindset that was lost where I thought everyone was beautiful in their own way.

I sound cheesy and gross, I know, but that’s how I truly feel about things, and I just can’t give any fucks about judgement right now. And I shouldn’t, ever. At least in regards to this. 

Anyway, I’m going to get off tumblr, really work on school things right now and take on tomorrow like it’s nobody’s business despite how exhausted and deathly I might feel. I’m going to try my hardest to really change for the better,

I will live the 4th.