I mean, I guess they aren't that small to me, but I regret not really taking as much "risks" as I wanted to. I regret not auditioning for Jazz choir, and pushing through with auditioning for the musical, and working on personal music things more.

I guess I'm more disappointed that I didn't pursue anything music-related as much as I wanted, because I do love it, I was just afraid that I'd start making it too big a part of my life, and I've been told to avoid that ever since I was a little kid.

I suppose I can find other small opportunities, or create my own. But these things were practically offered to me, and now that I'm a senior, I feel that I've lost my chance. Though I'm sure there could be similar opportunities in college, or just, somewhere.

I know there's gotta be a good reason to why I wasn't as inclined to join before as I do now. There's a good reason for everything, and I know I shouldn't feel this bad about it, but I do.

I'm also extremely tired from this past week with Kairos and all the make-up work and sleeplessness. Maybe that has to do with my mood right now.

I'll stay home this weekend, try to recollect myself, let go of things I can't change now, and then jump back into things on monday again!